So this is my second post for the day...hah!! cant believe I am finally blogging regularly :) I dedicate this post to the times I have spent on trying to find love and giving essential "long term relationship" tips... :P. For a person who has never been in love its really a big thing. Or wait I have been in love. Everytime I see a potential boyfriend material I start fantasizing being in love with him. I carry out imaginary conversation and go on dream dates. This thing exists for a month or two and gives me emotional satisfaction.
And then one fine morning...bang....I no longer feel anything for him. If by any chances the guy has fallen for me, I start doing everything in my power to push him away. These include not replying to messages, not taking calls, insulting them, etc. I dont know what happens to me. I feel ovewhelmed by the emotions I contain in my heart. Mind you I dont do this intentionally but I cant retain love. Simple. Or wait maybe its not so simple. I have two theories for this behaviour one it happens coz my habbit of fantasizing too much and two I am afraid to open myself completely to a stranger.
So all in all as a result of my erratic mind and heart I have never been in love or that is what I hope coz what happened very recently is I met with a person who is exactly the same as me. Just that he did with me what i do with others. So I am still thinking that if I have been ditched.. :P. But still this hasn'tchanged me a bit.... hope I will recover soon!!!!!
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This one's gud... I think you should post your other poems also... Stop this negative attitude... life is full of surprises and you should not think like this about love... Love is wonderful as long as you know you are being loved.
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